Monday, November 14, 2011

Why I write

I debated for many days over whether to mention on here the bruhaha on Goodreads.  I realized it would be a moot point as that ship has sailed, sunk, rebuilt and sailed again.  There is nothing I can say that hasn't been said, argued, misinterpreted and debated.  So I wont.  What I will say is this.  For as long as I can remember I have wanted to write.  My whole life I have had an imagination that was on fast forward.  Everything isn't black and white to me, nor even shades of gray.  It is purple, or amethyst,  blue or sapphire, green or emerald.  I see the beauty in a world that to some is no longer beautiful.  I see young men and women struggling to find their own way in the world to only be told they don't belong, and not listening to the naysayers but standing up to their beliefs.  I see these same young people being torn down for that, physically, emotionally, painfully.  Some give up  when the tough times outweigh the good.  I have recently had the honor of meeting two such people.  One fought demons their whole life that most of us only ever read about.  In the end this person made the decision to let the demons win, and I mourn the loss of someone I could have called friend.  The other is a strong, courageous, beautiful young man who sees good in people even when most people see bad in him.  Ignorant because they don't understand what its like to grow up loving the same sex as themselves.  Or living inside a body they don't belong in.  I can not even imagine what their struggles are on a daily basis.  I have my own as does everyone else on this planet.  But I will not pass judgement on anyone else, I will stand and cheer for them for their bravery.  I will love them for their strength of character, and I will hold them when it gets to be too much.  After all one day one of my own children or my children's children may face these same conflicting moments.  I want them to know they are not alone.  Like every disease we strive to erase from mankind, intolerance should be up there with Cancer, Autoimmune diseases and AIDS....To my newest "nephew" you are a bright shining star and don't you ever forget that.  ((hugs))


  1. Oh babe, I needed tissues for that one... simply beautiful.

  2. I read this and almost cried. That was so beautiful. Thank you so much for this. I'm so honored and so humbled as well. You ROCK Auntie Em!

  3. Um...and *completely* off topic (so much so that I'm almost ashamed to ask) ::wrings hands:: How did you get the fishies??? ::cough:: But beautiful post. Seriously. As a transman, I appreciate those who can look beyond the husk to see the soul.

    Now...about those fishies?

  4. Thank you so much for writing this :) It's always wonderful to see that there are people out there who get us, who are at our side :)
    ...and your new nephew is one of the most amazing people if ever had the honour to know :)

  5. thank you all for the warm is You all that should be applauded....and yes my nephew is a wonderful young man who deserves all the good life has to offer........

    DC the fishies are in the design section then go to gadgets...I actually had a friend tell me they were too distracting..i get people asking all the time about them..glad I didnt listen to her :)

  6. This is an incredibly emotional post. That man who finally succumbed to the demons was my friend. I will mourn him forever. The courageous one who's fighting for his place in life I will protect with everything I have. I think he knows that.

  7. Fabulous post. You are stunning, hun.

  8. This post brings tears to my eyes, and makes my heart soar.
    I have to agree with K-lee...just stunning.
    You have some incredible people in your life Vic, and I'm pleased to have a peek.

  9. Archie, I feel so honored to have the people in my life that I have as well. When I read this last night I was so touched and moved that all I could do was wipe away tears. I feel like perpetually pinching myself to make sure this is all real. Even in the midst of all the foolishness, I feel so supported and loved and when I see a post like this, it just reinforces it.

    {Hugz again Auntie Em}